Dakini Hikwsi

Elish made me a drawing & explained how we have two brains a smaller one & a larger one. The larger communicating to the smaller one. (Bicameral mind) also she told me we have three hearts. In the Popol Vuh's creational myth there are three dieties in the celestial realm collectively called Tepeu the Hearts of Heaven. She is so in tune! <3 my little Elish! 

Creation Myth

"The book begins with the creation myth of the K'ichee' Maya, which credits the creation of humans to the three water-dwelling feathered serpents:

There was only immobility and silence in the darkness, in the night. Only the Creator, the Maker, Tepeu, Gucumatz, the Forefathers, were in the water surrounded with light. They were hidden under green and blue feathers, and were therefore called Gucumatz...
and to the three other deities, collectively called "Heart of Heaven":

Then while they meditated, it became clear to them that when dawn would break, man must appear. Then they planned the creation, and the growth of the trees and the thickets and the birth of life and the creation of man. Thus it was arranged in the darkness and in the night by the Heart of Heaven who is called Huracán. The first is called Caculhá Huracán. The second is ChipiCaculhá. The third is Raxa-Caculhá. And these three are the Heart of Heaven."

My letter to Ellie,

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Dear Ellie,

For this I followed Bob's Red Mill Pancake Recipe which I had found online. I modified the ingredients of course to add pumpkin in... about 1 cup. I also used stevia instead of sugar. (Note that since my friend Amanda brought me a electric hand mixer my baked goods are now less bland. Previously I did all of my mixing with the trusty old fashioned wooden spoon.)

I made a cream cheese frostig using stevia as well. 

Top your pancakes with what ever you would like. Me, I'm using cream cheese frosting, plump black raisins & almonds. (Note toastig the almonds would be so super Yummie. I'm just short on time as I need to lift weights and start on my holiday cards. The girls dressed for photos today thanks to Nana's AWESOME taste in xmas dresses. :D

I'll be posting photos of the girls shortly. 

ENJOY your pan cakes!!!!! <3 xoxoxoxox

My nine year old daughter, after watching a movie about a british ballgame stadium being bombed, with tears in her eyes and snot running down her face said to me. "war is no good, it's not good for anything. It doesn't prove anything other than the fact that you are a murderer."

She knows many of our friends are in the military and she is not being disrespectful. This comes from her heart.

Lifting weights and tonight this song came on during my deadlifts. It fired me up. It helped me to envision my daughters taking their Jiu-jitsu classes and being able to fight!

Hear me out my friends before you decide to loathe the fact that this song fires me up. I am a patriot though perhaps not in the same way that you may be. Hear me out friends. Though "if you don't understand don't even bother to ask."

Born a fighter to a line of fighters on my fathers side and survivors of disasters on my mothers side. 

From birth I had to fight for my life, no pulse no breathe, where was my hikwsi? My WILL to be, my Will to survive.

A mother who has grown up with a fatherless past...

a child who has heard the stories growing up with vietnam vets...

a survivor of molestation...

a woman who was going to join the Army...

a survivor of the aftermath of hurricane Katrina....

"Come along follow me as I lead through the darkness
As I provide just enough spark that we need to proceed
Carry on, give me hope, give me strength
Come with me and I won't steer you wrong
Put your faith and your trust as I guide us through the fog
To the light at the end of the tunnel
We gonna fight, we gonna charge, we gonna stomp, we gonna march
Through the swamp, we gonna mosh through the marsh
Take us right through the doors"

This is what I am to my family, to my children, to my husband....

I am the matriarch I have the spark that we need to proceed, to carry on, to give hope, to give strength. No I wont steer my family wrong.

They put their faith in me as the matriarch, "I give sight to the blind, my insight through the mind
I exercise my right to express when I feel it's time"

Normally I would have something to blog word wise along with the photos. However tonight I REALLY need to eat. So I'm preparing my food as I load photos. And 123....off I go. Enjoy the pics.

Matty has changed his mind and he now wants a firey orange/red tone ceiling. Our drop lights will also be different perhaps come November. 

I've been meaning to post some of these photos over on face book.

These are some of the goofy errors that Willow makes on her school work. For example question 20: Writing to explain.

Willow's answer for question number 20.

Question 40.

Willow's answer:

The answer that was in her book if only I could get her to read the very top of her pages. EVERY TIME that she has questions that are in regards to the information at the very top/beginning of her Math lessons she just bonks out. I then ask her if she bothered to read the very beginning and she tells me no. 

There are more but it takes me quite a bit to upload these photos to our server. Matty is trying to work out the kinks and configure a nice multiple uploader for our sites. :D

Okay now off to see my husband, paint some walls and cook dinner for my fangily!!! :D 

Well here I am yet again :) This has to be a quick blog blurb because I have much to do. (Hahahaha, when don't I?) Matty and I often kid that I'm going to pass on out of this earthly plane by age 54 if the world doesn't end in 2012 anyhow, just because I over tax myself. I konw your thinking ehat the hell kind of kidding is that, right? Well, I'm telling you people I am a do do do doer. I do not like to be idle. This is what is going to preserve my husbands life span I believe. He knows how to relax and I do not point blank. Even when I'm relaxing, like say watching x-files with Matty, I am constantly paying attention to things in the room around me, noises outside in the world, etc. I JUST CANNOT RELAX!

Okay, many things to do, I need to move the fridge so I can paint the wall with the prayer flags and skeleton aprons hanging on them.

I just iced that carrot cake from last night and crushed walnuts and pecans in my fingers to layer the icing with. Everything I do baking wise is all done by hand with my fingers or a wooden spoon. Yep!

Well Anywho I  wanted to show you some of what Autumn was working on yesterday as well as the new carrot cake :P  

Oh and Anya chewed up Yaddo's little toy puppy tail :*(

Autumn was looking at sugar skull pictures with me online, here's her work so far. Autumn is very super critical of her work. Her sugar skulls are also on the white sheet in pen.

Carrot cake number 2 in the fridge now:

Yaddo's puppy tail :*(

Round number two here. I was starting a blog and I somehow managed to delete it when calling to Matty for help in regards to uploading images.

Today I worked on painting the kitchen RED! I managed to get one wall finished which is great. Do you know how hard it is to get tasks of any kind actually completed when you have a household of six humans and several pets. Some of you may. It leaves no time for boredom in my life let me tell you!! 

Matty and I have decided that we are NOT going to paint the entire kitchen red. We are going for colorful!!! :D The ceiling will be black. YES BLACK. We will be painting sugar skulls and stars on the ceiling. 

~ The Irish Soda bread is out of the oven and cooling. I need to get on the carrot cake.~

Now when you look at the photos of the red wall, bear in mind I used what I thought was an edging tool. Boy did Matty have a good laugh at me. He said to me, "No wonder it took you so long. Hahaha! Goofy me!

(see me=goofy & yummie salad with pecans and raisins.)

Soooo, 

There seems to be a bit of chaos right now with our kiddos being goofy hyper kiddos and Elish bumped into something, break for a diaper cloth and ice. Be right back...

Okay...every thing's good but I NEED to finish up with these photo uploads here and get on this carrot cake so I can lift weights tonight. :)

Irish Soda Bread: